Dear diary today im feeling really down abot myself because of my byfriend i have never felt so down in my life, im hoping everything will turn out ok soon he isnt talking to me anymore but he tells me it my fault but far as im concernd i havn't done anything bad, i only said one thing nothing bad it was nice and now heis mad with me telling my dad its my fault and what not he always blames me but i guess it is so i will agree it is and leave it as that.

a new year another day same old crap same day. Sometimes i hate myself, i wanta bloody break.

I'm getting tired of living with my parents now i've asked my boyfriend about moving out but NO he dnt want to leave his mummy behinde! what the hell, sorry bout spelling im not feeling too good. My boyfriends uncle explained he cant always stay to keep his mum happy WE have a life and i want to move onbut cant. i'm peeved off with it.

maybe its time to move on. he wont leave his mom and at the same time you wont leave him. you need someone who will push you to achieve your goals and not hold you back.